Sensational, Drama , Ordinare...

2009-06-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

,rrii9

2009-05-21T16:37:00.000-07:00

WHERE'S THE FUN IN MY LIFE?

serious i need my F.U.N back

2nd june off to RIOU ISLAND...let my hair loosen,stress free me im so efing excited...

2009-05-20T23:11:00.001-07:00

EXAMS ARE OVER...N HERE COMES MONEY N HOLIDAYS!!!!!!WOHOOOOOO!!!!!!...

2009-05-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

webcaming wif him was a blast and never a bore!!!

"i feel ure near me everytime u look into my eye i feel safe, i feel safe beacause ure near me"

exams..

2009-05-04T23:43:00.000-07:00

yea so exams is literally next week and guess what im not finish with a single thing n yes im gona fail!!!i cant think nor can i work my ideas of...life for me had been preety unfair this past few month its as if ive stepped on a fucking bad shit!!im like jinx n i had no idea why...its like after one another ballack or watever they call it in malay falls on me...schools sux, exams not prepared, hate love with my new job,friends???dont ask,parents asking me for money(its not that i dont want to give them its just that my pays not that much + preperation for my exams..bukanye aku tknk buat its just that im running out of cash to buy things n print things LAGI2X DIGITAL MEADIA!!!sumpah sia 2 class tk perlu sia!!!...merepek kan...ezlink tkde duit nak gi skola pun susah..singtell bill caught up to 6oo+ due to early termination!!!WHAT THE FU@##$!!!!!!!!!!!,failed my ftt..(dah bodoh kn tkpelah),and this past few days people just give me those cold shoulders and stares!!!people i no nothing of...i cried so many nights but hey i know crying and whinnig wont do much...now i know ni semua berlaku because god is testing me..my patience..i dont need sympahty, i dont need ur money nor do i need any1...im like suffering alone what do u ppl care??

new bike

2009-04-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

" Life's a bore...Bore your life.."

ever wonder y one day u suddenly wakes up not knowing what lies infront of you?ur life?what has it got to offer?what's gonna happen?

good riddance...

when you wake up infront of you lies ur stinky mama mumbling n screaming at you with her fuzzy hair like mad women lah asking you to buy santan for her...thats my mum n tats what she does every morning to me...haiz..i dont wear bra u expect me go mama shop...thats my mum love her...hapi mother day luv u mum...u will not know how much i need you cause i dont noe how to express it...

2009-04-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

everything screwed up for me n what i begin to live in..I hate this part...im soo sick for the past like how many months n i just pretend that ima happy living thing!!!imma thing u got it a thing!!!a thing that everyone has to screw to me n just kept repeating it over again as if u people love to see me fall hard on my face! 3 words I DONT CARE!!!i dont give a fuck! i dont give a damn!!i camr running back in u'll see!!!Relationship has been going up and down eversince.Im not sure y either im tired of this switheart i really am!!i dont know if i could pull this off...i dont one us to be of a waste i really do not want it to be like this. Yesterday night was bullshit fucking ass its as if i wanna kill that person hu hit me!!!R u blind!!!tk nmpk ke org gan cross road!!n he hs bike handle bar just hit me in the back that hard!!!i was like in pain n the monster ignorant idiotic fucker chibai just leave me like that n ran away like a coward!!pegecut babi!!!!!!eeee marahnye!!!!marah marah marah!!!!

2009-04-14T04:52:00.000-07:00

hello my invaded cobwebs blog..heheeh...yeah i know i know..i've been busy all the time..heheh n i've got new pictures wee....well pictures tells it all... so this is at sentosa celebrating my bro faiq his 10th badae..his 1st time at sentosa with my guys family...

marah nmpk...heheh

for his brother

2009-03-24T20:09:00.000-07:00

A special poem i wrote myself for someone who made a huge impact on me. And not only me but to his families, his friends. And yes today's the day 25th march is a a dy to remember. His like a borther to me n i remember before he left for his 3 1/2 years this...Achieve wat u wana achieve never gives up if u pray hard to allah insyallah everything will go on smoothly......this poem is titled " For his Brother"(Today)

Today

This very day

We mark a day for remembrance

25th march 2009 and 3 1/2 more years to come from now

We will be waiting,

waiting patiently, silently

For his return

Families will cry unnoticely

Friends will stand up tall honouring him

while he smile saying good bye.

This very day,

some bids farewell while others painfully watch him go

Behind those cells, we know his gona be just fine

For his brother

We wait

Patienly

Restlessly

For his return.

shagg

2009-03-23T02:24:00.000-07:00

currently having digital media lesson and im so not paying attention..I tell u i'm so gona fail this class i bet..with not even 1 assignment from starting of this assignment im way lacking of time!!!!ARGHH!!! I SUCKS AT PHOTOSHOP AND DREAMWEVER!!!echa u seriously needs o catch up man..assignments are pilling on me!!

We're gona hitched 1 year of fights and love this 25th!!!!WOOHOO!!longest ever relationship i had with someone special..ndont think gona celebrate cause his bro gona be sumwhere n will only be bk 3 yrs later..im sorie b!!i noe ure gona miz him!!

2009-03-19T20:35:00.000-07:00

hmmm siapa itu..heheh cute kn die the basist from the sally's recognise him?

enjoying my food..yumyum...

SCDF Family day..

2009-03-19T20:26:00.000-07:00

so thats about it ade lah lagi but malas lah nak upload byk2...heheh...the kids was like having so much fun aint they look so cute..hahah i had fun with his family.

no drinks just dance..

2009-03-19T19:47:00.000-07:00

no drinks just dance tats's my motive for that day at st jamespowerhouse.. though we went with only 3 peeps, me my cuzin n the b.f we had loadsof fun..and didint expect lots of some old time familiar faces i met working there too.hahah conincedence..i think i get that spelling rite...

love love love it!!!!

2009-02-13T00:34:00.000-08:00

yesterday i went to IMM with akky to buy him his V dae gift and that is an Everlast Watch thats going on a promotion for $49 bucks which is really worth it!His been asking for that watch since god knows when and yesterday is the day...I wanted to give him a surprise so i told him that i wanted to go to the washroom..nak terberak hahah(padahal2x) while he go around browsing for stuff i sneak out from the bathroom and ran to the watch shop. I was damn lucky cause that EVERLAST watch was the last one and it left with only one colour untill the stock came which is in a bout 1 or 2 months..bullshit!!so why wait right...while paying guess what happen..he was there looking at me and i was like oh shit..and i smiled..wat a bad surprises i am..hahaha and in surprise guess what he bought me???hahahah A FUCK*&*^% CAMERA!! SHIT RIGHT!!! the latest touch screen + editing free + slideshows + smile detection cam. the T- 77 sony cyber shot cam..i was like over the top and shocked..but i love love it!!

T-77 sony cyber shot cam!!!

Thanks honey !!!!!

tired n shacked!

2009-02-09T06:20:00.000-08:00

horrendous day today!!i dont feel like talking or even blogging today cause i really dont have the mood!!btt sucks!!my bro got himself an injury in the head and he can't seems to recall things and what's weird is that the things he can't seems to remember is mostly based on numbers but he did remember the rest like whats his name where his from..he kept repeating the same quetion over and over again like "hari nie ape date?9 feb eh?hari nie monday eh? bsok ape date?" then he will keep repeating the same thing agin..." hari nie 9 feb eh? no aku ape ar?"and agian and agin and he keeps looking at his phone for gods sake...haiz..pitiful yes very but kinda irritating..haiz..

2009-02-05T19:16:00.000-08:00

i woke up late today infect i just woke up like 15minits ago (i've not taken a shower yet hahah but i brush my teeth okay)...and ya i did miss history and good for that hahah...i really have to change and stop coming home late everytime..well almost everday and stop waking up late and make excuses to not go to school...my attendance is like shit i think and its just january..what hell..assignments already pilling up up up and up up up and way to mount kinabalu...i just cant help it..so many things happend and i lost track of it.i seems to be falling out and left behind while others almost reaching to the finishing line.i really have to change for the better no more late nights no more to much strees from school ,home, relationship ,work, money espeacially.haiz..i need to go find a 2nd job and fast before i fall any further...im tired just tired!!!i dont know what else to do..i"m so confuesd and lost...

2009-02-05T18:37:00.001-08:00

some previous outing photos i had and didn't really blog about it so ya..it was last week i think when me and akky went sentosa to actually went tanning and due to that stupid bad wheather we dint so we had no plans or whatsoever and ending up with samll fights and i was so damn angry that i suggested that since we're here why dont we make use of it.eventually we went sentosa and catch the log ride and the 4d magiz and it was superb fantstically awsome...we durh fucking enjoyed ourselg..it was fun...and ooohh..the picture with those beautiful sceney it was actually lastyear when we went cycling from buaona vista to bukit batok and back..it was a long story after akky's tyre punctured around bukit batokand we have to actually walk back home..hillarious stupid hungry sweaty and angry!!hahah

2009-02-03T18:51:00.000-08:00

It was such a foolish thing to do but i really had no choice but to do what i had to do for me.Im not being selfish or whatever you may think but it's true im tired of the way how i live my life..N no its not your fault it was never your fault in the first place. Okay im lying when i said that but i never did blame you for what i do and what i think. The only one person that i could blame is myself cause i put you in a very difficult position and here i am whining how i suffered.I have what you call a THING to think whats good or bad whats right or wrong. You want to know the truth okay i give you the truth after you came into my life i felt no better than what i have previously i felt so safe around your arms for this 11 months.But in return things got so bad so out of control. Now i felt so confuse ever before and half the things is yes beacuse of you. But i never blame you for that i never!not once i said that but its sad isnt it.You had a good life but what about me?And here i am every day every single damn night crying locking myself in my room afraid to come out afraid of what i might do next.You dont know You dont notice You seems unconcern im not sure.I post this right here instead of telling you is cause i know you dont bother to see tha painfulness i had now or bother to read any of my post.INITIATIVE GUY use your initiative!you dont have to sak me whats wrong tell me everytime you see im sad even if im sad you dont bother!no point guy just no point!

tanjong Rhu and henderson waves outing

2009-02-02T01:10:00.000-08:00

2009-01-28T17:55:00.001-08:00

I will be updating soon soon enough....

Thanks.

2009-01-23T01:12:00.000-08:00

It was a teary night last night but Thanks for being there when i need you.You rushed to tamp from jurong to meet me when i was badly in need of someone to talk to.I'm sorry if i had made you wory bout me but i just cant control my tears.All i needed is someone to talk to and a hug and you were the right person to hear my sorrows and pain.Im vey thankful that i had such a wonderful and understanding man like you.what more can i ask for.thanks for the best company last night you smiled i smiled you laugh you laugh and i want that to be with us always!!im relief that we sought things out last night im glad that we did that.

P. S: Im not emo its just that i feel emotional this pat few days...hahah....

2009-01-21T21:52:00.000-08:00

ThANKS FOR BEING SUCH A PILLAR TO MY PAIN...NOT!!!!

2009-01-21T04:47:00.000-08:00

I HATE YOU!!!! EEEEE!!!!!!!!self obsturct idiotic ego jerky beast!!!

2009-01-18T20:09:00.000-08:00

Why do my life has to be so cruel everytime?????? is this the right decision im making??im not sure, im scared im confuesd. What am i gonna do?Do i have to give up the thing that i like for the sake of others? Scarifice my hopes and dreams for people i love? Do i need to feel pity for them?Do they feel pity about me?Dont think so. I tried my best but i had failed just because my life is mean. You dont give me a chance to live my dream. If i need to do what i have to do i'll do it for my family even if i have to give up my dream my dream school my life of doing art, it's okay i'll survive i hope cuase i know i'll be wasting money on something people think i have no future on ten better not waste any more.
P.S: Kalau kakak kene buat ape yg patut ten i will kakak tk pernah and tknk menyusahkan semua if i have to work i work school can wait its okay as long as you help my brothers and sister and dont shatter their dreams and hope.

escape outing

2009-01-18T19:47:00.000-08:00

heheh cOuuuhhkkk..Finally my sick comp has recovered from a fatal disorder and its up and running now!I've found this pictures lying around in my cam for ages and decided to blog it since i couldn't back then and since my cam has been infected so why not upload it here for memories..jang jang jang...introducing the '' Escape Outing" kinda forgot the date..but i know it was during the holidays so ya..

mish you mish you!!

2009-01-14T21:06:00.000-08:00

starting of school term already!!!woooo 1st week of school and im dead beat already!!i guess i need to work extra hard this semester both work and school!one thing for sure this semester my pockets gonna be fucking dry like hell!!!!buy this and that this and that!!fuck!! okie im bored full, my tummys bloted and i have nothing to talk about!!so peace!!!i will update pictures yg dah antique lame gile here once im have all the time in the world and ive got the pictures.. ooh btway you guys should go to henderson waves its bloody beautiful and im in love with that place so quite so nice so high!!!!!

2009-01-06T04:24:00.000-08:00

COBWEBS COBWEBS ALERT!!!!!!yes i have been very lazy to update my blog since i've enjoyed my life so much that i forgot almost everything that's happening and not updating in my blog. One thing for sure i believe 2009 gonna be hard for people involved in this year recession crisis (more for people to save their pocket for bad times yes yes for sure), gonna start my 2nd semester soon and after that horrendous result i promised myself to work even harder this time i hope getting a just passed isnt good enough for me!!, and how i enjoyed this new year celebration -with his and my family and MALACCA trip was superb with you cuzzins!!i enjoyed my goody good time!!!LOVED!!!

2008-12-08T08:13:00.000-08:00

To: Myself and especially him

I know i did so many sinful things this year, I wish i would'nt become like this. I guess i was fooled by the outside world . It was harsh and stupid of me to do that. Guy i was wrong i know sweetheart. I dint mean to hurt you i know you were crying, i saw! It was unintentional disappointment. I will forever remember you text me on that very night " I just feel that i'm loosing someone that i know", I feel i was loosing myself, someone i knew so well before suddenly changes into someone i totally hate, someone totally different and yes i hate this part right here! Despite how hurt you are inside, you smiled saying its ok, yet you forgive my wrongdoings. I was touched. If only you could read and understand the pain im going through right now you would understand why i've change. If you were to fly away one day i know i would die slowly...away..

P.S: May Allah be with you and protect you always and i will be next to you.

2008-12-08T07:57:00.000-08:00

cute kan cute kan!!!i was freaking jealous when he got to take pictures with those adorable American kids!!!isshhh!!!so adorable!!!but one thing for sure they are so god damn out of control!!Nakal nak mampos!!!hahah biaselah kids will always be kids takan adult kan hahahah...

2008-11-24T21:39:00.000-08:00

Oh gosh i've cut my hair, cut my fringe bangs, died my hair pitch black and i look like a lost Chinese girl looking for china town hahaha and an adorable one heheh...everything for free!!!tanks fiqah for choosing me as your hair model for you exams..u did well and sure pass!!!with flying hairs hahah...

cali bbq pit

2008-11-24T21:12:00.001-08:00

15 Nov 2008 Cali Novena Ops Team BBQ Pitt @t Changi Beach Pitt 11

sentosa song of th seas

2008-11-24T20:47:00.001-08:00

okie so i had a huge fight with love cause he promised he would meet up with me and end up with a fight..hmm i still find it kind of ridiculous with myself okie i admit i may be unreasonable at times..AT TIMES only! So met up with him end all those craps and he brought me to Sentosa to watch Songs of the Seas!!arghhhh it was F*%&* Cool and beautiful!!the light was amazingly displayed and what a jaw dropping spectacular performance!those eye catching fireworks display i feel like screaming again again again!!!heheh so i had a wonderful time with him and his family going around with their APV car( his dream car)big and spacious but i dont quite like that car i still prefer my MPV!!!once i got my green light pass heheh...

cali's holloween party

2008-11-22T04:19:00.000-08:00

hollowenn was a hohoholoweenny...fun fun fun!!!!

2008-11-22T03:55:00.000-08:00

I feel crappy today probably dint do much things that excite my enthusiasms. Eat, slips all day , watch t.v and the same routine over again. Given the chance to spend time at home i complain, working all day i complain, not going out having fun i complain, going out having fun the same thing I COMPLAIN!!whatever lah echa!!!and this idiotic " high-tech tingy tingy" is driving me to my grave!!asshole!!arghh!!fucktart! now back to my oh so called mundane life eat, slips all day,watch t.v haiz...

2008-11-18T22:20:00.000-08:00

weee...im back im back...miss you people...finally schools over means more working days!!!i hate that!!!eee!!more pictures to be updated!!!...something gone haywire with my com at home since its been infected by dirty viruses through my stupid thumbdrive!!arghh idiot!!i need someone to fix my thumbdrive cause theres like over tons and tons of important files there so do aplogize and i need some time to put my pics cause i really in need of a com right noe!!!damn...so see ya soon...muakz

2008-11-06T20:44:00.000-08:00

assesment next week so i need to really manage my time!nearly 3/4 of my assignment is done and im left with painting nazi cardboard, do my 5 series of stucture and paint them,compile my 100 well so called 100 sketches,compile notes and drawings for the other class and im done and i need to do some touch up on some of my work.!!in the lib right now wasting some time with the clans and yes noisy bunch as usual!!

fyi zeila i dont laugh like that.aku ketawe sopan okie tutup mulut nye ketawe dari ko gan afan keturunan oik oik huahuahuahua!!!hehehhohoowoof...

and im heading to SENTOSA to take pictures of random people doing very random things thats my idea since im too lazy and time constraint to think of whose my model what to do blah blah blah...i need to do this and finish up those piles and piles of assesment shits!!hope it wont rain today plz......

2008-10-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

yesterday adds on to my number of list of "reactions when they hear this:my b.f lives in j.e and i live in tamp-east vs.west"and a total of 101 people including people of my friends and his friends and people i dont know react the same thing!yes i know thats how they react too! oh well sedih sey!so what right atleast im still living in singapore rather then like new zealand or something!!dumb!thanks eh people!!and because of that my mood drop to like total 0!tze tze!!bb then bought something that i've been craving for since the past 3 weeks i think.Finally die belikan pun!!
me:bi u nk tahu ape tk?
bie: ape?
me:kat si2kan ade bazar sey
bie:abih?
me:paz2kan ade makanan...
bie:abih?
me:paz2kan ade KEBAB!I NAK!PLZZ
bie:yelah yealh..

heheheh i'm soo happy i got my kebab!!bazar 2 cam tahu jek aku nk makan kebab hahhah!!after satisfying oneself with that delicious yummy kebab suddenly i felt like eating ice cream and durian!!shit!!!i want ben and jerry ice cream plzzz!!!

2008-10-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

Finally half my assignment had completed and loadz more to go!!!tze tze i need a life seriosly!and fucking hell am i hungry or what nak makan tkde duit nak tungu gaji pukiwak punyelah meyeksakn!!lambat gile!!!!

note to self: focus echa focus!!!!!!fininish up those god damn asignment!!

2008-10-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

okie i really need to let this out since i had no one to let it out 2!!I feel like kicking and punching and killing someone and kill myself at times biar aman sikit dunia nie..!!why cant u humans leave me alone and dont add shits to my oh so called small shit brain!arghh!!nafa sucks at their admin shit stuff!!assignments is like pilling more and more!works been hell every time!not having enough sleep!b.f is behaving like a jerk now and then hurting me while he sits there like a stupid fool dont know what to do never were there even when i'm badly hurt and crying to myself!Parents are such a nuisance with asking me money every time!they know i'm broke myself so why even bother to ask???i wonder if i were dead would everything be just oh so peaceful?no disturbance, no more painfulness, no more nags, no more tears.u people would be crying on my deathbed while i'm floating far far away..away from those evils away from those evil evil depressions!!u guys would be happy am i right!!happily happy!!!!

sick sick sick!!!

2008-10-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

Arghh went to CGH yesterday due to circumstances of bad bad tummy pain!cant sleep cant eat and the contractions is fucking horror!PAIN!!!i feel like cutting that tummy of mine and squeeze out those fats,acids,meats whatever that causes that painfulness!!waited half and hour just to see the doc(that is why Sunday's not a very good day for being sick and i hate hospital!), gave me a jab to reduce the sore and numb me!!wah!took urine test cause doc says it could be urine infection!!eeee sounds eekky yucky i know!waited another half an hour 2 10 and finally results out..tank goodness it was just something i ate that day..food poisoning and not some kind of appendices or something!!pheww...so had mc for 2 days..wee...time to finish up my work!!

2008-10-15T23:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we had investigating art class at Raffles place how cool is that outdoor class..The clans and myself head down to esplanade cause we totally had nowhere to go..snap some pictures CLICK!CLICK!CLICK!and we're done for the day..it was fff...HOT!!i was like sweating and my ketiak was..hmm..TUSNAMI sia..hahah wtf echa..after i'm done, head down to j.e to mit up wif my biol and yes he was late again!!that made me furious mad until i cant be mad anymore!!let me see this is the 9th TIME he was late and i HATE TO WAIT!!sheesh bad habit syg!!ten went to BUKOM island took ferry there and we played bowling..i scored a total of 6 strikes!!!woohoo woop woop..i dint know i had that in me..haahah..ten got back to pandan and go makan with biols family..something struck me suddenly when his dad talks about marriage!!ape sia i was like totally lost!!akward moment there!!!wosh kawin eh..relek ar father-in-law gue mau enjoy dulu!!hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahah ape sia echa!!shut my crap!ok so enjoy the pics...chaos

oh yah i forgot i feel like screaming cause assesement week is coming and piles and piles of work has yet to be completed!!BUCK UP ECHA!!YOU'RE SCREWING UP YOUR LIFE!!!lets scream together people...ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!enuf said

2008-10-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

idiot!!oral com class was cancelled and here i am wasting my time till 6 for my next class..buang mase gang!BUANG MASE!!

viviocity...

2008-10-14T01:39:00.000-07:00

went vivo to take some pics for my photography class and investigating art assignments and it was so nice of him to actualy help me out with my stuff..im so touched inspired hahah..and finally half my assigments done and half more to go..so mafan!!took some nice moments there and i think i like it..hope my lectures like it 2..hopefully lah eh..dah malaz nk redo redo nie semua lah buang mase!!

nafa sports day pics!!!

2008-10-14T01:25:00.001-07:00

Sports day for us is a bore!!its more of a spots then a sports!!shits...we were sweating

and i was wasting my time by coming there..i thought it was actually fun cause never did any previously my school had this kind of so called fun-affair hahah thingy for sports day.actually its not that bad after all..watching my classmates taking part in the volleyball challenge was headache,heart pain,irritating due to some issues concerning a BITCH!!!!!stupid annoying bitch from that performing arts just do not want to shut her pine hole up!!!in the end her team lost and our team took the title of champions..2lah tknk diam kn PANTAT!!HAHAH

night outing pics!!

2008-10-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

i know i look fat!!jeesh echa loose that plz!!!hahah

Went drinking on Friday night at Alfresco with my colleagues.Me my manager that crazy women joanna, ah ben and md noor..and hakim who joined us later as we had to forced him to come down cause cant finish that whole tower of beer!!smoke sheesha and had a blast..sorie syg i know ure worried but i'm find sweetie..bah..muakz..

Raya pics

2008-10-14T01:06:00.000-07:00

Raya RAya Raya!!!wee...

2008-10-07T07:42:00.001-07:00

Only went out to celebrate hari raya on the 1st day..so boring..been very very busy and my schedules is damn tight..had to rush here and there and its simply SUCKS!!update more soon with pictures of my raya-ing with close ones and my baby's PASS OUT PARADE!!oh ya i want to tell the whole world that I AM SO PROUD OF HIM for being the BEST TRAINEE IN ROTA 1!!!had a shock of my life when i heard his name.oh dalam diam diam eh!!what a surprise..congrats boy you deserve that shining plaque of yours!kudos!!

yeyyeye!!!

2008-09-30T02:25:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the day.Yes the day people had been waiting for. RAYA!!!weee...unfortunately sum1 here is not that excited though..In the past when i was still a childish kiddo i use to be like over the moon..but now since im all grown up into being a more responsible adult ahem ahem haha whatever!!my mindset for raya-ing this year is..''oh ok raya wow rite hmm yelah..''NOTHING SPECIAL!!BORING!!i think its cause i had to work, i dint do much shopping for myself either, i dint help mama to clean the house and help bake kuih and i'm like practically entirely nowhere to be seen at home most of the time cause of schools and working and hmm always going out!!i pity mumy sey cause she has to do all the things including help tidy up my room kesian mama..wat to do..AND AND i did so may sinful things this year masyalah haha..like i dint fast for hmm let me see 1 week cause bandera jepun and 1 week cuase i was sick,tk sahur,tkde niat nak puase..so a total of 2 weeks!!hahah jahat!!evilkenival me!!!I'm doing my last minit shooping tonight at geylang confirm ribut cause the prices either goes down or no more..

Booguus!!!

2008-09-24T22:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday if it wouldn't be zana who texted me to break fast (sort of) with her AND AIN i would have been like super super bored plus feeling so lethargic after school.FINALLY!!!ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HEARED FROM THEM..FUNNY I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT THEM 1 DAY AGO AND POOF HERE THEY ARE TEXTING ME.HAHAHAH MACAM TAHU JEK I WAS DYING OF BOARDNESS AT HOME.HAHAH..(the large caption was unintentionly cause the comp here in school sucks!!!stupid keyboard!So met up with them at small mac and went to B.K for a sumptious meal of rendang burger..hmm yum!!After filling our hungry tummy with tons of fat calories we head down to our usuall place where we so called lepak after school during our secondary times..ahh..kenangan..those days burok!!hahah We called it B.K too..because its near a mini mart B.K mini mart the name....Farhan, aidil and qua was there..wow i miss those guys!!!miss hanging out with those bunch of crazy nuggets!!hahah..I was super tired after 3 hrs of chatting and laughing so head back home and simply doze off like a baby!!zzzzzzzz.....then he called..kacau gue tdo jek!!!hahah
7 more days to Hari Raya and 8 more days to POP!!!wow cepat nnyeeee...

2008-09-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

wokie something shocking i would say happened today..I was on my way home from school today and i decided to take bus which i usually don't.As i board the bus deciding to sit further back cause i just love to sit at the higher sits, there's this one scary looking guy ok not that scary lah..i mean his scary for me with those long hairy hair and that beard was just like oh my goodness!I hate hairs!!!!!EVERYWHERE!!!haha ok back to my story..And there's this one very cute little girl with her kindergarten pinafore on probably between the age of 3 to 5 with this intimidating guy at the back of my seats.AS usual cant be bothered thinking they're some kind related or so.As so after a few stops that GUY alighted and just left that poor girl alone there while he walked as if she's not any relatives of his..I looked back and that girl was so calm she even waved goodbye sit quietly and talked to herself. I was like WHAT???i was confuse for a moment there..How?BUT WHY??WHO??all those questions in my head.KESIANKN...She is sooooo adooorable!!! So i just buat bodoh thinking maybe her mum or whoever is sitting infront but after a few stops she alighted the bus..HERSELF!!!!!!WITH LITERALLY NO ONE WITH HER!!WOW!!!!tk takut pe mak bpk budak 2!!budak 2 hilang padan muke merane ar krg!!i am so furious mad!!kesian sey die...what if something happen to her?haiz..parents pls pls take care of your children..there's so many kidnapping and molestations even rapes been going around..so disappointed on her parents...

shakalakalaka miaow thats rite!!!

2008-09-18T23:07:00.000-07:00

Its Friday and I'm loving it!!staying at home to finish up my school work and hogging on th comp and 2 days of not stepping to my work place listening to ppl whine!!!It's been a long time since i breakfast at home and today mumys cooking LONTONG!hmm yummy blum hari raya waste ingredient ajek..hahah..Usually i'm working so i had to break fast at work place which i dont even normally eat..no time so busy everyday..Yesterday was my colleague's burfday md nor..Hapi fartday!!hahah and yes when there's someones birthday there's definitely a hardcore cake smashing by who else other then me... head down to slegi rd to eat there and got hm like preety late..and ya thats about it i guess...1 more week to go ppl!!!weee...

2008-09-15T03:22:00.000-07:00

AHHH...I miss u my blog..Been busy with things lately well actually not..work has been eating up my life!!all i do now is work work go out on sat and back to more working since its the holidays!!and i'm out of cash!!arghhh....so many things to do so little time..shopping for hari raya things has not been done or should i say not even started yet..sianz... not even did a single homework and schools starting in 1 weeks time... ahhh..wtfuck lah...me so need to organize my time thats a definite!!!and i hate to go to cramp places with tons and tons of fashion victims in sight in such a hot and stuffy atmosphere!!u know what i'm talking about ..arghh...puit!!but i love love the food they offer!!!hmmm..yum yum!!!
HOORAY...16 more days to hari raya and 17 more days to POP!!!woop woop!!!

BURPPPPPPDAY !!!weee

2008-09-12T08:34:00.000-07:00

arghhh....dint get to wish u guys happy burfdae....to afan...izzul...jaya...martha...niza...md noor ..penu...hahah...and huevers burfade is in sept which i dint add in here sorie miaows.......all my wonderful happy goober..who never fails to make me smile, cry, laugh, scream....

Happie BURPDAE!!!!!!!!!BURPPPPPP!!!!miaow

may god bless u guys in happiness, wellness and whatever ness there is...sucess in life and smile happy goobers!!!lup u guyz...

2008-09-09T07:02:00.000-07:00

If i could have just one wish,
i would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine..
knowing that i could never find that feeling

with any one other than you..
-courtney kuchta-

Fuck Fuck Fuck lah..eee..i'm mad im like literally fuming mad...foosh...BTT sucks!!i thought i had high hopes for it..the question was..hmmm okie it was doable.. i thought i can pass the test..when my fingers finally pressed those end test button i thought this is it..the moment to my next step..CLICK...loading.....heart beating so fast..FAILED!!WHAT THE FUCK!!!i feel like cursing myself fucking me upside down..but i maintain my coolness luckily i'm fasting or else...choas!!Fuck sia!!!eee geram!!bodoh sia aku..qnt gitu punye lah sng pun tkleh jawab..babi!!nevermind ive booked my next test..hopefully i'll pass and move on to the next stage..ADVANCE...look on the bright side baby...(Always look on the bright side of life..doo doo doo doo doop)

22 days to hari raya and 23 days to Akky's POP..wohhoo..and counting..

oh ya another thing i wanna fuck about..FUCK i'm werking 2morrow!!!EEEEE!!!!!!!!!

sick sick sick!!!

2008-09-08T20:26:00.000-07:00

I've been infected with flu this day's...arghh..i'm so sick and weak and i still have to come to work!!screwed!!i cant even think straight nowadays..my minds been corrupted because of this god damn flu!!i hate them!!been working since Friday..went to catch movie with him and his friend on sat..and ya the rain was horrendous.its like raining heavily and we had no choice but to ride the bike in the rain we were like shivering..gegegegeg burr..!!no wonder i get the flu..sundays my e-trial btt test it was easy but the whole thing sucks including the teacher stupid incidentlong story..break fast at his place with his family and catch another movie yesterday and today i have tons do..finish up my homework and pass my real BTT test today!!arghh...hope there's enough time..well that's about it i guess..screwd up life choas...

2008-09-04T06:23:00.000-07:00

Now here's something to be happy about..Its Thursday night..and yes we all know we're one step closer to the weekends..yeye weekends countdown!!!I'm not that particularly happy for weekends cause i have to work..and working is such a no life...life..i hate weekends cause i have to get my ass screwed at work.. kept doing the same thing over and over again i hate it!..hearing stuck up rich people nag and nag and nag!!oh SHUT UP will ya!!lifes not perfect!!ure not perfect so stop wasting time on making it so perfect!!but on the other hand i love weekends cause baby's out of camp!!!weee...and ya i miss my colleagues too..how i wish my life is not complicated but..if there's no complication in life its not thrilling am i right...here's some pictures we took with my cali's family on the last day where everyones gone..leaving us alone..one by one moving on in tears..

ps: i was touched, moved by your sincerity..never will i exchange for anything cause u guys made my day..

again and again

2008-09-03T21:36:00.000-07:00

ure leaving me again..!!i'm happy for you infect i'm so bloody god damn proud for u..no seriously i am...im so happy for you that i cant say anything else but to just be there to share those glory moments with you..though i do feel that you are laving me alone lonely again i cnt help it just to cry in pain and pretend ...6 more months plus 3 month is not short..its freaking long...u dont noe how i suffered u dont!but boy 1 thing for sure its that what u relly want then go ahead..i'm proud for you and i will always be there to share those beautiful moment with you.kudos to you my man.

I'M GOING TO DO EXTENSION WEEEEEE!!!!!!hope it looks nice and just the way i want it to be...

27 more days to hari raya and 28 more days to baby's Pop..cant wait

somethings were gained while others dissapear

2008-09-02T08:08:00.000-07:00

I feel scared..I'm loosing something which im not sure about while at the same time i've gained something which im happy about but..i dont know whats happening with my so called mixed up life im living in..im in a total state of confusion right now.I do not know what to do with my life.Schools too stressful..things just kept piling on my desk..work's even worst then i expected with that tight schedule in my hand i doubt that i can ever survive.Bf its been great sometimes..but i just think somethings not right..ur'e a wonderful guy that i'm deeply madly in love with sometimes ure there sometimes ure not..but one thing for sure ure my laughing and smiling machine baby!!Friends..huh talk about friends..where are they when i even need them!!!call themselves my FRIENDS!!!just wanna shout it out if u guys do ever come across or even bother to even see this..I MISS U PPL!!!yes i know its partly my fault 2 cause im always busy with werk werk and more werk that i neglected u guys but do understand the situation i am right now.. School+Projects+work+friendship+relationship+home+financial=INCOMPLETE STATE OF DISASTROUS WORLD!!!!!!kaboosh bang bang!!!die die DIE

oh echa stop whining would ya!!!its so naggy!!!see i've turn crazy i even talk to myself!!wtf!

one and only..

2008-09-02T02:03:00.000-07:00

If i could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

to the warmth of you lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine..

Knowing that i could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

28 more days to Hari Raya, 30 more days to POP and counting...

2008-08-31T19:24:00.000-07:00

crushed!!!i've missed AJA performance last night!!! half minit late arghh...sorie nurul we're not there to give you the full support that we could give you yesterday.I guess performanse was over the roof i heard...awesome...1st day of puase..aint the time moving past so fast and the next thing you know its already hari raya...wow..im so excited..weee.....30 more days to Hari raya and 31 days to his POP and counting..weee....cant wait..

2008-08-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

today was an ok day..not so fun but it was..well ok..we did drawings where it teaches us the lights, shadows and stuff using black paper and soft pastel..it was cool...i notice that theres so many people in my course are really good at this damn!!!!really their artwork was like wooaa...mine definitely cant match their standards. I'm so pissed..so many homework..i need to finish up my presentation for 2morrows class...comic strips and finish up my 3D sticks that can withstand the weight if a brick...how the f$^&* am i suppose to do that..

2008-08-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

WEEEEE!!!!23 aug 2008..what a day..celebrate my baby's badae..things dint went smoothly at first go a small fight but then it got smooth...went sentosa 2 see fishes and dolphin it was gorgeous!!i like...then surprise him with another treat at swensens. said never been to swensens so i brought him there with a mini surprise....banana split with candle act as a cake(since he dose'nt eat cakes)cool rite...heheh after that went to bukom island to celebrate his badae AGAIN but this time with his friends and family...total spent:quite close to 250-300 includes presents..fiew...my hard earn money..well once in alifetime..syg mah..now i just got 2 think of away to survive with 100 leftin my accnt for 4 weeks..aiyayayayay...headace...but its all worth it...

weeee...im so hapi oh so hapii...and i bought a new phone....a cybershoot phone finally..weee double the happines for saturday!!!!!!

2008-08-20T23:47:00.000-07:00

hahah...boring nothing to do.....

2008-08-20T19:17:00.000-07:00

in the middle of class now..i sneakily walked out of the class with just a skecthbook and pencils running to the lib..10plus alredy and im so sleepy my purpose to the lib is to use the internet to find some resources for my next project which is manga drawing..well i dont quite put it that way ok a comic script which is due in 1 weeks time..faster finish get over and done with!!!ok..gtg i have like 1 hrs time to be exact to find find my sources!!!WEEE.....

2008-08-20T03:05:00.000-07:00

Drew a couple of sketches during free time. i was actually planning to draw some pictures of me and him in a book.Like some kind of a fairytale book for his birthday (which is this monday celebrating on Saturday yippe can't wait) but due to time constraint's its not achievable.Too bad honey...but i bought him a Adidas watch for $175 , billabong cap $29.90 a trip to sentosa and Swnsens for dinner..sounds good?hopefully it turns out A..ok..shhh..its a surprise!!he so have no clue about this!!heheh

picture not perfect!

2008-08-20T02:37:00.000-07:00

Photography class was so oogeli fun yesterday. We did what we call a photo gram in a dark room!!WOW!!!!I'm like so excited!its was so cool although my pictures doesn't turn out the way i wanted it to be but its a one great experience i had.I use of course all my favorites object like stars and shades...This is my photo gram i made...u dont really quite see the objects being reflected cause i think i dint put it in a longer timing.well cant wait for nxt week!!hopefully nxtweeks even better pictures better results...

2008-08-13T21:48:00.000-07:00

im bored lalallal...in the school lib with dash and waiting for time to fly...so bored..so sleepy so...WASTE of time!!!hogging on the comp and now batts gona die soon..so soon...haiz so many assignments so little time!!!presentation presentation presentation!!! drawings drawings drawings!!!i miss my baby!!!cant wait for fri!!!yipee!!!!!

2008-08-13T06:26:00.000-07:00

wow amazingly this is my 3rd blog..new blog for a new life..